Psalm 15:4: Do I keep my oaths even when I am hurting?

Psalm 15:4: Do I keep my oaths even when I am hurting? 

(Written in 2017) As I read Psalm 15:4 today, it ministers greatly to my heart.  Particularly the line that says, "He that sweareth to his own hurt, and changeth not."  I don't usually read the NIV of the Bible, but I like this translation of this portion of the verse in the NIV translated as, "Who keeps an oath even when it hurts, and does not change their mind."

Today I feel immense sorrow and heaviness in my soul. In my grief, do I change how I love God?  Do I keep my faith strong even when I hurt?  Do I keep my oaths to follow the ways of the Bible even when I am hurting?    

I remember that God NEVER changes (Hebrews 13:8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.).  Even when I push Him away, He still clings to me.  I will remember that God is always on my side.  I am determined that even when I am hurting, I will not change my mind and suddenly believe anything other than the fact that I am a beloved child of God! I will serve and love Him even in the midst of great sorrow.  Then I will heal.  

I praise you, Jesus for your patience and love!