Julie's Poetry, Part 1: 1991-1994

 

Julie's Poetry, Part 1: 1991-1994

As I mentioned in part 1 of my testimony, I am going to share some of my poems to accompany my story.

To some, poetry may not seem like a particularly profound or spiritual thing to share.  However, like the book of Psalms, I see poetry as a way to praise the Lord as well as being spiritually and emotionally healing.  

I do not write poems very often (I am not a very good poet), but I wanted to share these very honest poems with you. Most of these were written when I was still rough around the edges in my walk with the Lord, but these poems show a thread of faith throughout my life as I grew in the Lord. There are a lot of them, so I have divided them into four parts. As with the testimony, feel free to skip these if they are too boring and search the blog site for other topics this week! 

(Psalm 46:10) Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth. 

Be Still (1991)
Be still…
My heart pounds and I clench my fists,
I can feel my frustrations surge again,
The tears sit quietly in the corners of my eyes

And know…
What waits for me?
Are my dreams to remain wishes?
Will I even know when reality comes?

That I…
I cannot grasp what is to be,
There are no visible signs leading me,
I do not know what the future holds

Am God!
The Peace of His strength now surrounds me,
Life’s questions begin to fade,
What waits for me will come

(Psalm 27:13) Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.

Waiting (1993)
I’ve heard it said before
That only the wicked are downcast,
Only they are restless with life,
But even I,
With Christ at my side,
Even I am impatient

I long for a better future,
Expecting to again love life,
Though nothing ever changes,
Yet I still wait,
Praying for a miracle,
But I wait with an open heart

A prophecy was spoken one night,
Telling me of God’s love,
It said He was planning my future,
And as I cried,
With bitter tears turned to pearls,
I cried with hope and peace

God’s love is teaching me every day
To trust whatever He has planned,
There is freedom in God’s words
And I love Him,
Knowing His promises are true,
I love Him with all my heart

(Lamentations 3:22-23) It is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.

Mercy (1993)
I sit alone to talk to You,
But words are so hard to come by,
I want to speak of my love for You,
But You are so hard to comprehend,
You surrendered Your dignity to be nailed to a tree,
How can I put such an act into words?

In all Your majesty and glory, Lord,
You allow me to come,
Alone I will be with You,
To bask in Your mercy

When I failed You and broke Your heart,
You still loved and cherished me, Lord,
And never gave up on me,
Compassion saw past my stubborn heart,
And allowed me to come back into Your arms,
To lean on Your love alone,
Knowing Your mercy will always find me

No matter how hard life may be,
Your love brings things into perspective,
Your grace makes life bearable,
And my trust remains in You

(Psalm 26:2-3) Examine me, O Lord, and prove me; try my reins and my heart. For thy lovingkindness is before mine eyes: and I have walked in thy truth. 

My Prayer (1993)
Dear Lord,
Anger rose up within me today…
How could one more bad thing happen?
How could I possibly handle more?
I am not so strong, Lord.
But as I opened up Your word,
A wave of Your comfort swept over me;
You knew how much I needed Your love.
Your compassionate voice told me all I needed was You.
You also gently reminded me of my words:
I asked You to test me, Lord,
I begged for You to make me stronger
Make me ready to serve You - -
Whatever it takes, Lord;
I am willing to be used by and for You.
And as I grow emotionally bound to You,
And the tears I used to hate surge,
I am comforted by those tears,
For You are the One who caused them to be,
And through them, I am stronger,
For I feel You most when I am weak,
And even while I’m telling You my day’s woes,
You empower ne in Your love…
I love You, Lord!
Thank You for trusting me enough to test me - -
I will do my best for You.
Amen

(John 10:27) "My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me:" 

The Voice (1994)
So many frustrations in my life,
So many hardships to bear,
Yet a peace encloses my heart,
And a Voice gently tells me not to fear

My senses come alive as this Voice speaks…
I have heard that sound before.
The soothing Voice that calms my anxieties
Is my dearest friend - - my Lord Jesus Christ!

(John 8:12) Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, "I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life." 

True Happiness (1994)
I have discovered happiness is surreal,
There is no real joy in this world,
Pain lurks around every corner,
Ready to drag down another victim

If only I look past worldly boundaries,
I can see a brighter Light - -
A Light that dims the sun,
And where there is never any darkness

I reach for that Light - -
Though I am uncertain what it brings,
For I know it is Jesus Christ,
And His peace is all I need to know

If only I will let Him lead me,
And use only desires He gives to me,
Then His happiness will bring comfort,
And this world’s pleasures won’t mean a thing

(Revelation 20:11-13) And I saw a great white throne, and him that sat on it, from whose face the earth and the heaven fled away... And I saw the dead, small and great, stand before God; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is the book of life: and the dead were judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works. And the sea gave up the dead which were in it; and death and hell delivered up the dead which were in them: and they were judged every man according to their works. 

Judgment Day (1994)
When all is said and done,
And I stand before my Lord,
He will not ask me of my wealth,
Nor will He ask about my successes,
He does not care whether I wore the proper fashion,
For this world will fade away;
What my God really wants to know
Is if I truly loved Him with all my heart,
Did I desire His perfect will for my life
And seek His guidance with fervent prayer?
Am I practicing all I read in His holy word?
Or am I a hearer only?
Am I a quiet witness?
Do I shout His name in the streets?
Or do I pretend He means nothing to me?
When I meet my Jesus face to face,
And bow in fear and reverence,
I want Him to know that He is everything to me,
And that I tried to be everything for Him.

(John 3:16) For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

Because of Men (1994)
Because of men,
Women go weak in the knees,
They write enough poetry to fit into a book,
They cry and feel pain,
And make fools of themselves

Because of men,
Women settle down to marry,
They learn to cook and clean,
They become mothers
And begin a happy home

Because of mankind,
Jesus died upon a cross,
He wrote them a love story in His Holy book,
He cried and felt pain,
He let them make Him look like a fool

Because of mankind,
Christ rose from the dead
He returned to heaven
He prepared a place for them
He offers a happy home

(Philippians 4:13) I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me! 

Philippians 4:13 (1994)
God, help me,
I can barely find the strength to breathe,
There is so much weighing on my soul,
And I fear this time it’s there to stay;
Give me strength, sweet Jesus,
I cannot do this without You;
I feel I will fall if You let go,
Please hold me tighter - -
I need You!

Don’t give up on me, Lord,
It would be so easy;
Don’t let me cease to believe in You,
For I feel my doubts are stronger than I am - -
They are pulling me so hard,
I feel I am drowning!

O, Heavenly Father, save me,
Don’t let me lose sight of Your love,
Pull me up from despair,
Don’t let me give in to disbelief,
Make me trust in You more;
I know I have pushed You away,
But I’ve always known I need You;

Let me come to You, dear Savior,
I feel I can no longer burden You,
But I need You once again;
I will never stop needing You,
For without You I am weak,
But through Your strength,
I can do all things!

(Psalm 42:5) Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted in me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance.

Sometimes (1994)
Sometimes I actually forget,
And everything seems... normal,
There is no fear,
No doubt,
But then an unexplainable anger will come
In remembrance of all that's ripping me apart

Sometimes I blame God,
And He feels so far away,
I cannot feel His presence,
And praying seems futile,
But then I realize how much I need Him,
And He pulls me back into His arms

My Testimony, Part 1: 1972-1995

 

NOTE: Because my 54th birthday is less than a week away, I decided to repost my 6-part testimony.  I hope this is not too boring (I am not that exciting, LOL!), but if it is, please feel free to scroll through the blog site or use the search bar at the top of the page to look for other topics.  (I wrote parts 1-3 in 2014 and later added parts 4-6.)  I am also going to include some of my poetry in between my testimony as they are a part of my story as well.  At the end of each part, I am also now going to include a song I feel best describes my testimony.  

My Testimony, Part 1: 1972-1995

I was praying about what to write about next when I thought I heard God say, "Give your testimony."  "Me, Lord?  I don't have a dramatic story."  But again, I heard, "Give your testimony."  So, I am believing this voice I may have heard was from God.  Also, I don't think it is any coincidence that the above meme just happened to be on Facebook the day I heard those words!

Although I am currently (somewhat) working on a fictional novel that is partly autobiographical, this 6-part blog series is not written in what I would consider a creative writing style, but more of an article style writing.

However, with that said, I will share with you the first paragraph I wrote in chapter one of my novel:

"My mother has told me that I was impatient even before I was born.  I did not want to wait until the end of September to be born but instead tried twice to leave my mother’s womb in August, but the doctors were able to prevent an early exit.  However, I eventually got my way by not waiting until the last day of the month, and was set free from a small, cramped space on September 11, 1972.  My mom says the labor took less than an hour.  Impatient?  Possibly.  Yet, I think way back when, I was just as claustrophobic as I am today and just could not tolerate being in the dark any longer."

"As I must rely on my mother for the details about my birth, I must also rely on her and my father on most memories of the first state in which I lived.  I was born in Winchester, Virginia, and we lived across the border in West Virgina until I was three."

   
Now on to the blog portion of my story:

I was born into a Christian family.  I was a preacher's kid until the age of 14.  I can't say I always loved it as I am very shy and I have never enjoyed being scrutinized at every turn.  I did, however, have a happy childhood with loving parents and an older sister that was also my best friend.  My mother stayed at home with us until we were teenagers and then she went to work as a preschool teacher.  After my father quit preaching full time, he worked very hard to become a licensed counselor.  My sister eventually went off to college, and we never shared a house again; she got married 3 years later in 1990, the same year I graduated from high school.  

In spite of financial hardships, seeing my family suffer at the hands of the leaders of various churches, and moving several times, I had a very normal and very sheltered childhood.

(1 Corinthians 13:11) When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 

Well, this all changed in 1994.  I will not go into details, but, after 26 years of marriage, my parents got a divorce.  I remember very distinctly thinking that things like this didn't happen in Christian families.  I was disillusioned with all I had been taught.  My parents pulled me in two very painful directions, and no matter whom I chose to give aid to, the other made me feel as if my act of kindness toward the other was a betrayal.  My sister had married a navy man and was living in Hawaii at the time and very busy with a toddler and a second baby on the way. I could not, would not burden her with my hurts, so I allowed myself to be in it all alone.  I didn't have any close friends, and even if I had, my faith in humanity had been so severely shaken that I would have pushed friends away. 

I need to pause here and add that, though this was one of the most painful times of my life, through the power of the Holy Spirit, I have been able to heal my heart and forgive all involved in the divorce.  I put the past behind me and continued to have wonderful relationships with both of my parents.

(Matthew 17:20) So Jesus said to them, “Because of your unbelief; for assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.  

What I did have was a small grain of faith.  But it was enough to keep me from sinking into a dark depression.  It was enough to keep my head and chin up while encouraging my family to do the same.  It was enough to look for a new church where I found the strength to cry out to God to restore my broken heart.  It was not that I was so strong that I held on to my faith, it was that God loved me so much that he refused to let me go!  It was only through the power of God, Jesus, and The Holy Spirit that sustained me then and still keeps me stable today.

(Jeremiah 31:3) The Lord has appeared of old to me, saying: “Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you. 

In 1995, about a year and five months after the divorce, I was injured in a physical way.  I was working at our local newspaper and one of my many job duties was picking up ad copy.  I was driving in very busy downtown Boise, Idaho Friday night traffic.  I was lost and angry that I had to do this job...  

Wait, let me back up.  I had been demoted about three months earlier due to the fact that my new supervisor was interested in dating me, but I refused to go partying with him because of my morals.  He later admitted to me he took his anger out on me because I was a Christian and made sure I got demoted.  After I quit this job, he became saved and apologized to me and even bought me a Christian devotional!  

Now, let me go forward again...  I was driving in November, and it was already dark at 6:00 p.m.  I was supposed to be back to the office by 5:00 and I was growing more and more anxious and more and more furious.  In anger, I had removed my seat belt (I'm not really sure why), but a few minutes later I suddenly had a very strong feeling to put it back on.  In fact, I even heard a voice tell me, "Put your seat belt back on NOW!"  I obeyed, and less than a minute later, I found myself going through a red light at one of the busiest intersections in Boise.  I remember merely saying, "Oh no!" and was hit full on the left side.  

My little Geo Tracker spun around and flipped onto its side, sliding down the street.  The canvas top was damaged, but strangers quickly came to my aid and helped ripped the top open before the police or ambulance arrived.  They even helped me crawl out of the tipped over vehicle.  When the police arrived, they had disappeared and I never had a chance to thank them. The first thing the officer asked me was if I had been drinking, and I said I didn't drink and explained that I was simply lost and hadn't noticed the red light.  The next thing he asked me was if I had been wearing my seat belt.  I said I had; he looked me right in the eyes and said, "I know you were because if you hadn't, I wouldn't be talking to you right now.  You would either be dead or very seriously injured."  Praise God I paid attention to that voice warning me to put my seatbelt back on.   

I was pretty badly banged up and had three months of chiropractic care and then three months of physical therapy, but I thank God it was not worse!  I still suffer pain today since I now have crooked hips, my neck doesn't curve right, and I have arthritis in my back & shoulders, as well as other issues that may or may not be directly related to the accident.  

God was looking out for me, and the day I saw my totaled Tracker in the tow yard smashed in on the passenger side, the entire right side scraped up, and the roof torn off, I knew angels had been with me that day.  And thank God also that the other driver was not hurt at all! 

(Psalm 91:11) For He shall give His angels charge over you, To keep you in all your ways.  

Well, this short story is growing and growing, so I will save the rest for later...

P.S.  For a little bit more of information from my childhood testimony, you can also read my below blog: https://thankful-julie.blogspot.com/2025/10/when-you-pass-through-waters.html

The song I would like to share for part 1 is "Hurt by Hurt" sung by Sonya Isaacs-Yeary:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EbNsCYwSIkk&list=RDEbNsCYwSIkk&start_radio=1

The Beginning, Middle, and End

The Beginning, Middle, and End

Every good story has a beginning, a middle, and an ending, right? Well, this same concept applies to our walk with the Lord. I am not speaking Genesis to Revelation, but our individual relationships with Jesus Christ.  

Your story as a Christian began before you were born.  John 3:16 tells us, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." "The world" means every person who has or will ever live on this Earth.  Therefore, Jesus died for your sins before you were born.  Salvation is a free gift you do not have to earn.  This is the beginning for all of us.  However, from there it is up to you to decide what will happen next.

As with any gift given to you, you have the free will to accept it or throw it in the garbage.  And even if you accept it, you again have the free will to fully use it as intended, only use it when it is convenient for you, or put it on a shelf and ignore it entirely.  In other words, we must actively choose the precious gift of salvation by making the decision to repent of our sins and ask Jesus to come into our hearts. It is also an active decision to keep walking the walk and daily repenting of your sins lest you lose your salvation. 

To be clear, I do not believe we are saved by our works, again, God's salvation is a free gift we could never earn. However, we must show the utmost respect for this gift and as it states in Romans 6:1-2, "What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound? God forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein?" In other words, we are not to abuse the grace of God and use it as an excuse to sin.

If you do not continue striving for holiness and following the principles of Jesus Christ, you put yourself at great risk of losing the precious gift of salvation. I am not talking about every little mistake you make, but willful rebellion, the active choice to go against what the Bible says and refusing to repent.

(Luke 13:23-24) Then said one unto Him, "Lord, are there few that be saved?" And He [Jesus] said unto them, "Strive to enter in at the strait gate: for many, I say unto you, will seek to enter in, and shall not be able."

We need to continue to grow in our walk with the Lord and make a daily decision to give up our sinful habits. Jesus said in Luke 9:23 "If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me."   Daily literally means daily, not just denying your sinful nature when you feel like it or are asking God for a favor.  This also means choosing to follow Jesus and His ways of righteousness. It requires daily self-examination and repentance.  For Jesus also said in John 14:15, "If ye love me, keep my commandments." And 1 John 2:4 makes it abundantly clear, "He that saith, I know him, and keepeth not his commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him."  

In doubt of what is right or wrong, read the Bible. If God (not man) says something is wrong, it is as simple as not doing it. Here are some examples (see also Revelation 21:8 at the end of this writing):

(Matthew 19:16-21) And, behold, one came and said unto Him, "Good Master, what good thing shall I do, that I may have eternal life?" And [Jesus] said unto him, ".. if thou wilt enter into life, keep the commandments... Thou shalt do no murder, Thou shalt not commit adultery, Thou shalt not steal, Thou shalt not bear false witness, Honour thy father and thy mother: and, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself... give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come and follow me."

(Galatians 5:19-21) Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance [quarreling], emulations [jealousy], wrath, strife, seditions [rebellion], heresies, Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings [drunken parties], and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God. 

I think that list is pretty clear for what we should do our very best to avoid as long as we live on this Earth that God so loves.  No one is or ever will be perfect, but the key is to strive for holiness, this is what pleases the Lord.

(Luke 13:23-27) Then said one unto Him, "Lord, are there few that be saved?" And [Jesus] said unto them, "Strive to enter in at the strait gate: for many, I say unto you, will seek to enter in, and shall not be able. When once the master of the house is risen up, and hath shut to the door, and ye begin to stand without, and to knock at the door, saying, 'Lord, Lord, open unto us;'... But He shall say, 'I tell you, I know you not whence ye are; depart from me, all ye workers of iniquity.'"

As with every story, the plot must develop and grow lest the storyline become stagnant. In fact, the middle of our stories is really the key to how it will end. Wasn't that point above? Well, yes and no. Aiming for a pure life is vital, but God wants us to do more than just try to avoid sin. We need to grow in Him by reading the Bible and praying, as well as treating others with love and kindness. 

(Hebrews 5:13-14) For every one that useth milk is unskilful in the word of righteousness: for he is a babe. But strong meat belongeth to them that are of full age, even those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil. 

This is essentially telling us that we need to do more than just understand the basics of salvation (milk) but to grow in the Lord by studying His Word as much as we can and seeking to know the will of God (meat). The more we study and ask the Holy Spirit to help us understand what we read, the more discernment we will have and the more we will desire to please the One who willingly endured torture on a cross for us.

We do all these things not out of obligation or to gain a crown, nor out of ritualistic habits or to manipulate God to give us what we want. No!  We obey Jesus and follow His ways out of pure love for our gracious, living, merciful, patient Heavenly Father.  

(1 John 4:19) We love him, because he first loved us.

(Romans 2:4) Despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance?

If we read our Bibles and pray and do what is right for any other reason that out of love for the Holy Trinity, then we do them in vain, and Jesus absolutely knows the difference!  He recognizes hypocrisy better than anyone.

(Matthew 15:7-9 & 23:27) [Jesus said,] "Ye hypocrites, well did Esaias prophesy of you, saying, 'This people draweth nigh unto me with their mouth, and honoureth me with their lips; but their heart is far from me. But in vain they do worship me, teaching for doctrines the commandments of men.'

"Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye are like unto whited sepulchres, which indeed appear beautiful outward, but are within full of dead men's bones, and of all uncleanness."

Now we come to the end of our story. But do we? For Christians who have not merely read the Words of the Lord but obeyed them as well (James 1:22 - But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves.), there is no end. There will be an end to this Earth and our mortal bodies as they now exist, but there will not be an end to your existence.  This is why the beginning and middle are so very, very important. If you want to spend eternity with Jesus, you must press forward in attempting to always do the right thing, or your end will be in the lake of fire, not in paradise forever.

(Revelation 21:1-8) And I saw a new heaven and a new earth: for the first heaven and the first earth were passed away; and there was no more sea.

And I John saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down from God out of heaven, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, "Behold, the tabernacle of God is with men, and He will dwell with them, and they shall be His people, and God himself shall be with them, and be their God. And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away."

 And He that sat upon the throne said, "Behold, I make all things new." And he said unto me, "Write: for these words are true and faithful."

And He said unto me, "It is done. I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. I will give unto him that is athirst of the fountain of the water of life freely.  He that overcometh shall inherit all things; and I will be his God, and he shall be my son."

"But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death." 

Song: "Plan of Salvation" (Yes, let's thank Jesus for His perfect plan of salvation.) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YwzbAdXZ0So&list=RDYwzbAdXZ0So&start_radio=1

Warn Everyone Night And Day With Tears, Part 3: Turning God's Beautiful Grace into a Perverted Lie

 

Warn Everyone Night And Day With Tears, Part 3: Turning God's Beautiful Grace into a Perverted Lie

Just a quick note before I go any farther that I want to make clear: I do not want anyone to think I am suggesting we are saved by our works. If you read my blogs, you know I believe Jesus' death on the cross, our salvation, and grace are free gifts we do not have to earn. My point here is to encourage you to treat these precious gifts with the utmost care and not neglect them, because they and your soul can be lost. Once again, this is not my theology, it is from God's Holy Word.

(Acts 20:29-31) For I know this... grievous wolves enter in among you, not sparing the flock. Also of your own selves shall men arise, speaking perverse things, to draw away disciples after them. Therefore watch, and remember... I ceased not to warn every one night and day with tears. 

One of the most prominent issues I see being taught by many wolves is that we never need to repent of our sins more than one time when we say the "sinner's prayer." They are afraid to convict you of sin less you cease to put money in their offering plate.  However, by teaching you to think you are eternally secure is very dangerous.  These are the exact wolves Jude was speaking of that are turning God's grace into a lie:

(Jude 1:4) For there are certain men crept in unawares, who were before of old ordained to this condemnation, ungodly men, turning the grace of our God into lasciviousness, and denying the only Lord God, and our Lord Jesus Christ. 

I know I have a lot of scriptures below for you to read, but I need to add just one more before I delve further into this blog. Paul is saying we should never use God's precious gift if grace as an excuse to sin (I encourage you to read the full chapter):

(Romans 6:1-2 ) What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound? God forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein?

The two scriptures that come to my mind are first, from Jesus' own mouth in Matthew, then from John, who was given visions of heaven. These two passages alone show our thoughts, words, and deeds do matter.

(Matthew 16:27) For the Son of man shall come in the glory of his Father with his angels; and then he shall reward every man according to his works. 

(Revelation 20:12-13) And I saw the dead, small and great, stand before God; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is the book of life: and the dead were judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works.And the sea gave up the dead which were in it; and death and hell delivered up the dead which were in them: and they were judged every man according to their works. 

Next, I will go to the old testament. Ezekiel was a mighty prophet who saw things as far into the future as the end of days of this planet as well as had many visions of God and heaven.  

(Ezekiel 18:24 & 26) But when the righteous turneth away from his righteousness, and committeth iniquity, and doeth according to all the abominations that the wicked man doeth, shall he live? All his righteousness that he hath done shall not be mentioned: in his trespass that he hath trespassed, and in his sin that he hath sinned, in them shall he die. When a righteous man turneth away from his righteousness, and committeth iniquity, and dieth in them; for his iniquity that he hath done shall he die. 

Pretty clear cut, don't you think? A man who heard directly from God tells us when the righteous, or the Christian, turns his back on God and intentionally chooses to sin, he will lose his salvation - die in his sins! This is not speaking of minor offenses, of course, but as Ezekiel says, "abominations," or rebelliously refusing to do what you know is right in the eyes of God.  Just as when we sincerely repent from our sins, they are blotted out by the blood of Jesus (Ezekiel 18:27-28 - Again, when the wicked man turneth away from his wickedness that he hath committed, and doeth that which is lawful and right, he shall save his soul alive. Because he considereth, and turneth away from all his transgressions that he hath committed, he shall surely live, he shall not die.), the exact opposite is true. Righteousness is canceled out by sin until we sincerely repent again.   (These same words are repeated in Ezekiel 33 as well.) 

Now let's look at the words of Jesus:

(John 15:1-6) I am the true vine, and my Father is the husbandman. Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit. Now ye are clean through the word which I have spoken unto you. Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me. I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing. If a man abide not in me, he is cast forth as a branch, and is withered; and men gather them, and cast them into the fire, and they are burned. 

According to dictionary.com, The definition of the word abide is "to remain; continue; stay."  Therefore, Jesus is telling us that if we leave our fellowship with Him (cease abiding with Him) we will be "cast forth... into the fire and burned."  Obviously, He is speaking of the fire in Hell. In other words, if you give your life to Christ and become a Christian but then refuse to follow the ways of Jesus by leaving your morals behind, you are no longer bearing good fruit, and you will be cast away.  Jesus does not say that you can stay grafted into the vine no matter what, and that you will be eternally secure. No! If you make the choice to leave Jesus, you will be cast off!

The more you abide in Jesus: read the Bible, pray more than just when you are asking for a favor, and worship Him with a contrite heart, the more it will be clear what He expects of you.  The more you will understand His character and His will, and you will want to do what is right (Romans 2:4 ...the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance.).  The Holy Spirit will convict you of your sins and testify to your spirit what must be done to see the face of God for all eternity (Romans 12:1 - I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service.).

Let's go again to the words spoken by Jesus:

(Matthew 7:21-23) Not every one that saith unto me, "Lord, Lord," shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven. Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity. 

This is obviously about someone who is calling himself a Christian, otherwise why would he be calling out to the Lord and prophesying, casting out demons, etc. But Jesus says that even if you call on Him and work for Him, you can still be in danger of losing your salvation if you are doing all these things while living in sin.  No, eternal life with Christ is not automatic just because you use the name of Jesus or do good deeds in His name, you must keep the sin out of your life, or He will tell you to "depart from" Him.  In other words, He will send you to Hell.

The next scriptures are speaking of the end times. 

(2 Thessalonians 2:3) Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition;  

My argument here is a simple one: the term "falling away" would not even be used if falling away from your salvation was not possible.  In other words, before the beginning of the tribulation, a large number of people claiming to be Christians will fall away from their walk with the Lord and lose their salvation. 

(2 Timothy 4:4; 7-8) I charge thee therefore before God, and the Lord Jesus Christ, who shall judge the quick and the dead at his appearing and his kingdom; I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing.  

There are many more verses I can list where it says in the Bible that all people will be judged according to their works. That Truth alone shows we are not automatically eternally secure.  If so, there would be no reason for God to judge our works.  Finishing the course and keeping the faith means the same as abiding in the vine.  In order to obtain the crown from Jesus, you must not let go of your righteous ways or give in to sin.

Here are a few more verses on obtaining crowns from God, our judge. Note when you read all these verses that they state you must endure to the end in order to receive the crown.  No where does it say the crown of righteousness will be given to every single person that says some version of the sinner's prayer.  There are conditions that must be met! In the below verse, Paul makes it very clear that even he could be cast away from heaven if he falls into sin.

(1 Corinthians 9:24-27) Know ye not that they which run in a race run all, but one receiveth the prize? So run, that ye may obtain. And every man that striveth for the mastery is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a corruptible crown; but we an incorruptible. I therefore so run, not as uncertainly; so fight I, not as one that beateth the air: But I keep under my body, and bring it into subjection: lest that by any means, when I have preached to others, I myself should be a castaway.

(Philippians 4:1) Therefore, my brethren dearly beloved and longed for, my joy and crown, so stand fast in the Lord, my dearly beloved. 

(2 Timothy 2:5) And if a man also strive for masteries, yet is he not crowned, except he strive lawfully. 

(James 1:12) Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him. 

The message of these verses is clear: stand fast in the Lord, strive lawfully, endure temptation, and you will receive a crown of righteousness.  Stray away from the Lord and holiness, and you will be cast away.

The last verses can be the easiest way to sum up that our salvation is not eternally secure.  Note the list of sinful actions does NOT say, "If you call yourself a Christian you can do all these things and still go to heaven," NO!  It says, if you commit the sins listed, you will not inherit the Kingdom of God.  There are no exceptions to that rule. You must daily repent of your sins, and strive to be holy as the Lord is holy, or you will not have eternity with the Father - not my words, this is scriptural (see below verses)!   

(1 Peter 1:14-17) As obedient children, not fashioning yourselves according to the former lusts in your ignorance: But as he which hath called you is holy, so be ye holy in all manner of conversation; Because it is written, Be ye holy; for I am holy. And if ye call on the Father, who without respect of persons judgeth according to every man's work, pass the time of your sojourning here in fear: 

(Hebrews 12:14) Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord: 

(Galatians 5:19-21) Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God. 

(Revelation 21:7-8) He that overcometh shall inherit all things; and I will be his God, and he shall be my son. But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death. 

Warn Everyone Night And Day With Tears, Part 2: A False Holy Spirit, Written by my Husband & Me

 

Warn Everyone Night And Day With Tears, Part 2: A False Holy Spirit, Written by my Husband (Mel) & Me (Julie)

(Acts 20:29-31) For I know this... grievous wolves enter in among you, not sparing the flock. Also of your own selves shall men arise, speaking perverse things, to draw away disciples after them. Therefore watch, and remember... I ceased not to warn every one night and day with tears. 

The warning theme on my heart for this blog has to do with demonstrations of a false holy spirit.  I cannot count how many videos on You Tube I have seen displaying this unclean spirit of Satan and declaring it to be from God.  I am shocked by the number of people who blindly accept this evil spirit as being from a Holy God.  They are absolutely being led astray by wolves pretending to be Jesus' sheep.

One of the main reasons Christians are being led astray is due to lack of knowledge.  People tend to just blindly follow their spiritual leaders without questioning them.  They do not want to actively seek out the Truth on their own.  Satan is counting on Christians to be lazy and just go with whatever is taught behind the pulpit from rich, well-polished "influencers" on the Internet.  Just as it is true with man's law, in God's law ignorance of the Truth is not an excuse to go do wrong.  You truly need to read the Bible on your own and never take anyone's word for truth, not even mine.  Your very soul depends on doing your own research and arming yourself against the false teachers.

Please be aware that anything God does, Satan will do his best to imitate, this very much includes the gifts of the Holy Spirit.  Satan wants to make us all look foolish when we think we are worshipping God but are instead manifesting Satanic actions and therefore, worshipping the demons of hell.  If you have been involved in any Satanic practices, please repent, plead the blood of Jesus over yourself and do not return to such false fire.

Please be diligent, brothers and sisters, and do not let yourself be led astray by these false shepherds in wolves' clothing that are trying to fill you with a Satanic spirit.  If you witness any of these unholy behaviors at church, on-line, or at a revival, run away as fast as you can.

The best person I can think of t0 explain what I wish to convey to you is my husband, Mel. This is an excerpt from a blog he wrote titled: "The Baptism of the Holy Spirit":

The apostle Paul teaches that gifts of the Spirit must be done in an orderly manner.

(1 Corinthians 14: 26-33) How is it then, brethren? Whenever you come together, each of you has a psalm, has a teaching, has a tongue, has a revelation, has an interpretation. Let all things be done for edification... For you can all prophesy one by one, that all may learn and all may be encouraged.  And the spirits of the prophets are subject to the prophets. For God is not the author of confusion but of peace, as in all the churches of the saints.

We are living in the end times and there is a great apostasy (falling away from the truth) occurring within the churches. That is why it is crucial that believers use discernment concerning the manifestation of spiritual experiences. 

 (1 John 4:1-3) Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world. Hereby know ye the Spirit of God: Every spirit that confesseth that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is of God: And every spirit that confesseth not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is not of God: and this is that spirit of antichrist, whereof ye have heard that it should come; and even now already is it in the world. 

There are many counterfeit revivals occurring with demonic signs and wonders that are deceiving many believers. Within these false revivals people are barking like dogs while crawling on the floor, mooing like cows and roaring like lions. Many are experiencing drunkenness to the point that they are being pulled over by the police after leaving a revival. Some people are even falling out on the floor in restaurants laughing hysterically. God is not the author of confusion or lawlessness, Satan is. Drunkenness, uncontrollable laughter, making animal sounds, sticking to the floor, heads shaking back and forth, are examples of the demonic manifestations occurring.

(1 Corinthians 14:39-40) Wherefore, brethren, covet to prophesy, and forbid not to speak with tongues. Let all things be done decently and in order.

These same manifestations occur within Kundalini Hinduism, as well as other forms of occultism. David Wilkerson has some good videos exposing the demonic within Christianity. Many Christians are afraid of supernatural experiences because of the demonic manifestations, but we need to allow God’s true gifts to be in operation within the church. It is not good to quench God’s Spirit or to be afraid of it. For God does give visions, dreams, work miracles, heal the sick etc. We need to pray over experiences and use sound judgment. The reason for this unholy spirit that has invaded the church is loose living, as well as unsound doctrine. The preaching of holiness has been replaced by the lukewarm grace for everything doctrine.

In order to live an overcoming Christian life in these dark times it is essential that we be filled with God’s Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is God, he is the portion of God’s Spirit that indwells us, as well as ministers to us. It is God’s will that we all experience the fullness of God and that is only possible by receiving his Spirit.

For more writings on the Holy Spirit, you can read these other writings:

Jesus Says He is Living Water (Written by Both of Us): https://thankful-julie.blogspot.com/2026/05/jesus-said-he-is-series-part-5-living.html

Where is the Discernment (Written by Mel): https://thankful-julie.blogspot.com/2025/12/where-is-discernment-part-2-written-by.html

Speaking & Praying in Tongues (Written by Mel): https://thankful-julie.blogspot.com/2024/11/speaking-and-praying-in-tongues-written.html

The Ministry of the Holy Spirit (Written by Mel): https://thankful-julie.blogspot.com/2024/04/the-ministry-of-holy-spirit-written-by.html

Wonderful Gifts (Written by Julie): https://thankful-julie.blogspot.com/2026/02/acts-238-319-wonderful-gifts.html

Warn Everyone Night And Day With Tears, Part 1: Witchcraft in the Church & Charismatic Witchcraft in the Church, Written by my Husband

Warn Everyone Night And Day With Tears, Part 1: Witchcraft  in the Church

At a very young age, we are all taught to go along with the crowd. We believe we should not speak out and be unpopular. It is drummed into us that is more important to be liked than to stand up for holiness. It is very difficult to find the courage to stand up for the Truths of the Bible when you know family, friends, and co-workers may reject you for not agreeing with them. Let me encourage you that the Bible tells us it is not our goal in life to please the worldly ways of our fellow humans, but to please God.

(Galatians 1:10) For do I now persuade men, or God? or do I seek to please men? for if I yet pleased men, I should NOT be the servant of Christ.

On my own, I am very shy and find it difficult to speak around more than a few people, even when they agree with me; it is ten times worse when they disagree. It is only by the power of the Holy Spirit that I can be bold and speak up for Jesus. It is never my intent to target anyone specifically, nor to insult or anger anyone, but just to get you all to understand what the Bible says about the dangers that have the potential to send anyone to Hell. It is out of love for you that I warn you. If I didn't care, I would remain silent.

(Acts 4:31) And when they had prayed, the place was shaken where they were assembled together; and they were all filled with the Holy Ghost, and they spake the word of God with boldness.





God has been gently reminding me that as Christians, it is our job to warn those we see going to the wrong way. We are not to be judgmental, of course, but to simply point out the Truths of the Bible. This blog series is meant to be a warning against unholy practices that are flooding churches. These standards do not come from me, but from a Holy God, and I will back them all up with scripture.

(Acts 20:29-31) For I know this, that after my departing shall grievous wolves enter in among you, not sparing the flock. Also of your own selves shall men arise, speaking perverse things, to draw away disciples after them. Therefore watch, and remember... I ceased not to warn every one night and day with tears.

Before I get into the topic of witchcraft, let me give you some verses that remind us that we are to hate evil, NOT to turn it embrace it as an acceptable form of entertainment:

(Psalm 97:7-10) Ye that love the Lord, hate evil.

(Job 28:28) Behold, the fear of the Lord, that is wisdom; and to depart from evil is understanding.

(1 Corinthians 10:20-21) And I would not that ye should have fellowship with devils. Ye cannot drink the cup of the Lord, and the cup of devils: ye cannot be partakers of the Lord's table, and of the table of devils.

(1 Peter 3:11-12) Let him eschew [turn away from] evil, and do good; let him seek peace, and ensue it. For the eyes of the Lord are over the righteous, and his ears are open unto their prayers: but the face of the Lord is against them that do evil.

Witchcraft is very accepted in the church. Don't believe me? Sit in almost any church for even one service and take note as the congregation speaks about their favorite movies. Although I believe the entertainment industry in general is Satan's playground full of sexual perversions, the over-sexualization of children/pedophilia, violence, and the occult. I know not all shows are demonic, however, for the theme of this blog I am specifically referring to the many programs that glorify witches, spells, Buddhism, yoga, zombies, demons, false gods/god-hybrids, vampires, werewolves, and other characters that are full of magic (this includes curses that made them what they are) as well as fairies, elves, and mermaids. Look at the church goers' children and observe how many are wearing clothing depicting characters from these movies. To make it even worse, the pastor(s), deacons, or other spiritual leaders who should be leading the church and listing all the many scriptures that speak out against witchcraft will tell you behind the pulpit how much he or she loves specific programs that are blatantly full of spells, witches, wizards, and the above-named creatures. Their own children have characters that represent witchcraft plastered all over their clothes as well.  They are wolves telling you it is okay to mix Christianity with Satanism. 

(Matthew 7:15) Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves.

Do not be deceived, God hates witchcraft (I will include scriptures at the end to show this). Wicca is not some innocent hobby that is merely appreciating nature. Ouija boards, tarot cards, as well as palm, face, tea, or other psychic readings are an abomination to God.

I watched an interview where an ex-witch said how shocked she was by Christians wearing crystals, burning sage, engaging in yoga, and practicing other rituals that she and her coven would practice (she also included Halloween) because the acts of such things summoned demons. She also warned that these so-called innocent cartoons are filled with real spells (including hand movements, not just the words) and are corrupting not just children, but also the adults that invite these shows into their homes. How many children are sleeping each night with a toy that represents a witch/wizard? Does this child have unexplained nightmares? Try cleansing their room by pleading the blood of Jesus over your entire house, get rid of all the objects that are associated with the occult and see if peace comes back to them (and you).

I can give you quite a few scripture verses telling you that witchcraft is wrong. Can you give me just one where God says it is okay?

 
(Acts 13:6-12) And when they had gone through the isle unto Paphos, they found a certain SORCERER... whose name was Barjesus... But Elymas the SORCERER (for so is his name by interpretation) withstood them, seeking to turn away the deputy from the faith. Then Saul, (who also is called Paul,) filled with the Holy Ghost, set his eyes on him. And said, "O full of all subtilty and all mischief, THOU CHILD OF THE DEVIL, THOU ENEMY OF ALL RIGHTEOUSNESS, wilt thou not cease to PERVERT THE RIGHT WAYS OF THE LORD? And now, behold, the hand of the Lord is upon thee, and thou shalt be blind, not seeing the sun for a season." And immediately there fell on him a mist and a darkness; and he went about seeking some to lead him by the hand. Then the deputy, when he saw what was done, believed, being astonished at the doctrine of the Lord.

(Acts 16:16 & 18) And it came to pass, as we went to prayer, a certain damsel [DEMONICALLY] POSSESSED with a SPIRIT OF DIVINATION met us, which brought her masters much gain by soothsaying: And this did she many days. But Paul, being grieved, turned and said to the spirit, I command thee in the name of Jesus Christ to come out of her. And he came out the same hour.

(Acts 19:18-19, AMP) Many of those who had become believers were coming, confessing and disclosing their [former sinful] practices. And many of those who had practiced MAGICAL ARTS collected their books and [throwing book after book on the pile] began BURNING THEM in front of everyone.

(Galatians 5:19-21) Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, Idolatry, WITCHCRAFT, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.

(Revelation 21:8) But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and SORCERERS, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.

(2 Chronicles 33:6) And he caused his children to pass through the fire in the valley of the son of Hinnom: also he observed times, and used enchantments, and used WITCHCRAFT, and dealt with a familiar spirit, and with wizards: he wrought much evil in the sight of the Lord, to provoke him to anger.

(Deuteronomy 18:10) There shall not be found among you anyone who makes his son or his daughter pass through the fire, or one who practices WITCHCRAFT, or a soothsayer, or one who interprets omens, or a SORCERER.

(2 Kings 17:17) And they caused their sons and their daughters to pass through the fire, and used DIVINATION AND ENCHANTMENTS, and sold themselves to do EVIL IN THE SIGHT OF THE LORD, to provoke him to anger.

(Micah 5:12) "And I will cut off WITCHCRAFTS out of thine hand; and thou shalt have no more SOOTHSAYERS [PALM READERS, FORTUNE TELLERS, TARO CARD READERS]."

(Malachi 3:5) "And I will come near to you to judgment; and I will be a swift witness against the SORCERERS, and against the adulterers, and against false swearers... and fear not me, saith the Lord of hosts."

Charismatic Witchcraft in the Church

Written by my Husband (Mel)

An unholy spirit has replaced God's Holy Spirit in many Charismatic churches. Because of unsound doctrine, loose living, leadership living in sin, irreverent worship music and dancing, God has withdrawn His Spirit and Satan has moved in. The spirit of witchcraft is the antitheses of the Holy Spirit. Witchcraft is a counterfeit demonic spirit that produces false visions, dreams, as well as magic (false miracles and illusions). Witchcraft is a spirit of rebellion and control.

 The true gifts of the Holy Spirit are present in churches that preach, teach, as well as live in HOLINESS. An unfaithful bride is living in spiritual adultery, and this is rebellion. 

A number of years ago, the Lord spoke to me in an audible voice, he said, “Ichabod!  It bears worth repeating, Ichabod!” I asked the Lord what he meant, and he replied, “The churches are dead.” I said, “Surely you have a few that are not dead?” and he replied, “I have a few.” The word Ichabod means, the glory has departed (1 Samuel 4:21,22). God’s Word teaches that before the coming of the Lord there will be a great falling away (apostasy). 2 Thessalonians 2:3 Let no one deceive you by any means; for [that Day will not come] unless the falling away comes first, and the man of sin is revealed, the son of perdition.

A number of years ago, the Lord showed me that many churches are an unfaithful bride, and he said, “Divorce.” The Lord made it very clear that spiritual unfaithfulness to Christ without true repentance, will lead to spiritual death (divorce). The Lord spoke to me in an audible voice and said, “I am warning my children to get out!” This word was followed by a dream. I dreamed that I was in a convenience store and that nothing worked right, the gas pumps, food machines, as well as everything else within the store was malfunctioning. I then noticed that the lid was off the drink machine, and it was almost empty; there were also three, half-eaten bags of Fritos in the drink. I said, “This is nasty,” I then removed the drink machine and put it in the trash outdoors. Then an older man walked into the store, and he said that nothing worked right. The angel of the Lord then answered him and said, “The authorities are on their way.” I then saw hundreds of Law enforcement vehicles with lights flashing descending from Heaven in the sky above. 

 The convenience store in my dream was symbolic of the churches who are serving up spiritual junk food. The almost empty drink machine, with three half-eaten bags of Fritos in it, is the greasy grace doctrine (Grace without true repentance) taught by most churches. The gas pumps that do not work are symbolic of an unholy spirit, which has replaced God’s Holy Spirit. It is essential that we be filled with the Holy Spirit to have the power to live a faithful life to Christ. Working gas pumps are symbolic of churches that teach people the necessity of being filled with God's true Holy Spirit, as well as sound doctrine.

There are many counterfeit revivals producing demonic manifestations occurring worldwide. The Toronto blessing, Pensacola outpouring, Lakeland revival, Kansas City IHOP, Bethel Church in Redding Ca, Hillsong church etc. are but a few examples. False ministries to avoid, Rodney Howard Brown, Benny Hinn, Kenneth Copeland, Trinity Broadcasting Network, Creflo Dollar, Jesse Duplantis, Joyce Meyers, Paula White, as well as all other prosperity gospel preachers, and those that teach the unconditional eternal security doctrine. The New Apostolic Reformation preachers are also heretical, as well as of a false spirit.

Within these counterfeit revivals God’s Holy Spirit has been replaced by demonic manifestations. People are laughing uncontrollably, as well as making all different animal sounds. They are hissing like snakes, mooing like cows, roaring like lions, howling like wolves, as well as barking like dogs. These same manifestations occur within Kundalini Hinduism, as well as other forms of occultism. In a congregation in Boston, the pastor crawled on his hands and knees like a dog, barking, and his wife led him around on a leash fastened to a dog collar around his neck. The wife then said, “Where he leads, I will follow!”

People also claim to be drunk in the spirit; they display symptoms of physical drunkenness. After leaving one of these revivals in Florida, numerous people were pulled over by law enforcement officers for drunk driving. They all passed their breathalyzer tests, because they were made drunk by an unholy spirit. God’s Word is clear that God hates drunkenness, and no drunkard will enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Satan is the lawless one, and he is making a mockery of God, within these revivals. After leaving this flesh fest, people were also seen displaying drunk behavior in local restaurants. They were falling on the floor in the restaurants, laughing hysterically. God is a God of order, and not foolishness. God will not make a person drive drunk or embarrass them in public. Where is the discernment? Why can’t Christians see that an unholy demonic spirit, is at work in their churches?

In some, so-called Christian rock concerts, many of the young people are going into trances, where they display tribal dancing. These are but a few of the demonic manifestations going on worldwide. The late pastor David Wilkerson warned the church about this invasion of demonic activity, as well as the need to return to holiness preaching, but most will not listen. It is time for the church to start using discernment and realize that something has gone wrong. God is withdrawing his Spirit from many churches, because they will not endure sound doctrine. If the churches will return to teaching and living in holiness once again, then maybe God’s Spirit will return!

Many of the leaders of these false revivals have been caught in adultery, as well as homosexual relations. I believe that in many cases physical perversion is a manifestation of spiritual perversion. The false prophet Todd Bently from Florida who led the well-known Lakeland revival, has a tattoo of a Japanese goddess on his arm. He claims that this goddess is really an angel by the name of Emma who accompanies him during his kicking sessions at his so-called revival. He claims that Emma has instructed him to hit or kick people in need of healing, as an act of obedience. The revival was shut down when it was revealed that he was having an affair during the entire time of this revival. This wolf in sheep’s clothing, divorced his wife and married his mistress. Now he is back at it again. A false prophet from Kansas City, claims that this same angel Emma came floating into his church to usher in their false revival. His church later removed him from his ministry position due to sexual misconduct with church members. Another false prophet from his church admitted to being a practicing homosexual. I could go on and on with examples of how perverted these revivalists are, but this should suffice.

Many of the television evangelists, as well as mega-church leaders, have also had their share of scandals. Benny Hinn has much darkness surrounding him. Channel six news from Orlando featured an expose on this minister. They showed on film a group of men sitting at a table together, and the evangelist handed a bong to his lead singer, as well as another man at the table. Both of these men smoked the bong. One of the men who smoked the bong, died later from a heroin overdose. While this married evangelist was in Rome, he was filmed walking and holding hands with television evangelist Paula White, who was wearing very short shorts. They both admitted to a friendship when the pictures were released but denied their obvious affair. In spite of this wickedness, their supporters chose to forgive them. If Christians would wake up and stop supporting these apostate ministers, they would shut them down overnight. God’s anointing is not on these reprobates, who use God for dishonest gain. Hell will be full of those who fleece the flock.

The Lord gave me a vision of over a dozen faces of television evangelists and mega-church pastors. Their images were spread out across my sight in this high-definition vision. The Lord spoke to me, "The apostasy runs deep, warn those in front of you and behind you!" For over thirty years I have been warning people about the apostasy, as well as the counterfeit revivals with demonic manifestations.

 Babylon is a term which means," wickedness". Mystery Babylon is the mother of all Harlots who rides on the back of the Beast. This is a reference to the Roman Catholic Church and her offspring. Her offspring are churches which will not endure sound doctrine, as well as Christians who are not faithful to Christ. Christians who live a compromised lifestyle are committing spiritual adultery. Salvation is a free gift of Grace which can never be earned through our works. God gives us grace to grow in him. However, we need to be filled with his Holy Spirit in order to live a Holy (set apart) life. There are many saved by Grace within the churches of Babylon, but Rev 18 tells us to come out of her!

(Revelation 18:4-5) And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues. For her sins have reached unto heaven, and God hath remembered her iniquities.

 A lukewarm church will be vomited out of God's mouth (Revelation 3). We must press forward and grow in our faith. Study God's Word, scripture is protein! 

Many Christians are afraid of supernatural experiences because of the demonic manifestations. However, we need to allow God’s true gifts to be in operation within the church. It is not good to quench God’s Spirit, or to be afraid of it. For God does give visions, dreams, work miracles, heal the sick etc. (1 Corinthians 12). It is crucial that we pray over experiences, as well as use sound judgment. The reason for this unholy spirit which has invaded the church is loose living, as well as unsound doctrine.

(1 John 2: 3-6) And hereby we do know that we know him, if we keep his commandments. He that saith, I know him, and keepeth not his commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him. But whoso keepeth his word, in him verily is the love of God perfected: hereby know we that we are in him. He that saith he abideth in him ought himself also so to walk, even as he walked.

(John 8:11-12 KJV) She said, "No man, Lord." And Jesus said unto her, "Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more." Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, "I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life."

(Luke 13:27 KJV) "But He shall say, I tell you, 'I know you not whence ye are; depart from me, all ye workers of iniquity.'"

(John 8:34-35 KJV) Jesus answered them, "Verily, verily, I say unto you, Whosoever committeth sin is the servant of sin. And the servant abideth not in the house for ever: but the Son abideth ever."

(Romans 6:16 NKJV) Do you not know that to whom you present yourselves slaves to obey, you are that one’s slaves whom you obey, whether of sin leading to death, or of obedience leading to righteousness?

(2 Timothy 2:19 NKJV) Nevertheless the solid foundation of God stands, having this seal: “The Lord knows those who are His,” and, “Let everyone who names the name of Christ depart from iniquity.”

(1 John 3:6 NKJV) Whoever abides in Him does not sin. Whoever sins has neither seen Him nor known Him.

(1 John 3:9 NKJV) Whoever has been born of God does not sin, for His seed remains in him; and he cannot sin, because he has been born of God.